As a prolific poet, journalist, critic, playwright and teacher, Nissim Ezekiel established his own style of modern poetry in Indian English poetry. Surprisingly, such a distinguished poet suffered from his personal, national and religious identity. At personal level he considered himself as 'A poet, rascal-clown' for, he illustrated himself as 'The frightened child who would not eat/ or sleep, a boy of meager bone'. He also was left alone by his wife and all his family. At the national level, the more he tried to prove his Indianness, the less he gained. Though he wrote many Indian poems to prove that he is also swimming in the same river of India, but in many cases they were used against him as a poet who insulted Indians. The crisis was to such an extent that he wished to be seen an Indian in the eyes of foreigners in India. His blond hair, blue eyes and fair skin made an outsider out of him. And finally, as liberal Jews, his family and himself were not considered as catholic Jews as his ancestors. A poem like 'Background Casually' from 'Hymns in Darkness' 1976 might be considered as the best autobiography poem that exposes all Ezekiel's identity crises